Day 5- I Only Have Eyes for You and You and You...Oh dear, oh my.

Crushes.
Everyone has one or has had one.
I have several crushes.
But most of them are celebrities because I don't actually know them.
My theory is that the more you know a person, it's harder to have a crush on them because you've seen their asshole moments.
SO.
Here are mine...

Alex Frost

Gerard Butler:

Jason Mewes or "Jay" from the duo Jay and Silent Bob

Chester Beddington from Linkin Park

Josh Todd from Buckcherry

James Marsters from Buffy

Stewart Townsend in The Queen of the Damned as Lestat

I love my taste in men =)
Haha.

Day- 4 She Speaks Words as Soft as Bricks.

RANT.
I do have quite a bit to bitch about.
The gates of hell have unleashed a mad fury upon ye.
I don't know why I said "ye", MAYBE I FELT LIKE IT?!

You know what needs to stop?
ME BEING SICK.
OMFG.
I want to be HEALTHY.

I now fucking HATE hospitals.
I went in healthy and came out sicker than SHIT.

GRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!

Then, today was my first full back and I bore witness to some very disturbing things I can't unsee.
PEOPLE NEED TO WEAR LONGER SKIRTS AND BE AWARE THAT THEY SHAN'T BEND DOWN IN CERTAIN WAYS WHILST WEARING SHORT SKIRTS.
Especially the biggin's (fatties, tub-o's, etc).
I saw the moon so many times today and it wasn't the one with the stars.
For fuck's sake.

I wish I didn't attract so many damn weirdos.
It needs to stop.

And I wish girls weren't so blunt when hitting on me.
I'm getting fucking paranoid and creeped out.
Do not tell me you want to eat my "cat".
Go to fucking China, where it's acceptable to do so.
Go on, get!

I mean...seriously?
AND THEY DON'T EVEN KNOW ME!
I'm not a piece of meat, damnit.

I'm completely exhausted now,
ARE YOU FREAKING HAPPY?

Haha.

Sleep = lovely.

Love and best wishes,
Amy * Sea

Day 3- Imma Zombie.

"Do something creative with your face, take a pic."

I did so for Wild day.

BRAINS?!

Sorry for the shitty picture quality.

I'm due for two...

I was sick, sue me.
I'll do them now, okie?

Day 2- A Confession...(Movie review topic)

I Am Legend is one of my favorite movies.
Well, my confession is...Every time I watch the part where Sam dies (the main character's b-e-a-utifulll dog, a German Shepherd), I cry. So very hard. And a little part of me dies inside.
Because at this point, the main character loses almost all hope, I think.
The only thing he lived for, leaves existence.

This makes it movie my favorite movie.
No, I'm not a sadist...It's the fact that he keeps living.
It takes a strong person to do that. A very strong, powerful person.

Sure, he might have been rather callous, or cold to the woman whom saved him when his car flipped over and her son. But just imagine a loss like his.
That callousness was short lived.

He then gives his life in order to save them, save them all.
I know you might think Well he had nothing to live for.
Wrong.
It's not just something you do...the giving up of your life.

If you assess his character...
He's stubborn, noble and brave.
He seems a bit OCD, this could have been brought on by his lose. It seemed to me that he wanted to preserve the house. I made this assumption when they were in his daughter's room.
He fought 'til the end.

I also like how it started by someone trying to find a cure, like in most movies.
It gives it a realistic feel and is rather...logical. Also, it's irony and oh how I love irony.

Plus, the opening scene where him and Sam are driving around hunting the deer was beautiful. I especially loved when the lioness attacked the deer they had pinned. Beautiful. The whole family of lions were beautiful and it amazed me how they didn't attack, on either side.

And the movie had a happy ending, full of his remembrance.
He found the cure.

I am certainly quite teary after watching this but remember, there's beauty in sorrow and most times, it's the richest beauty.

Good night all and much love,
Amy * Sea

P.S. It's on again, I'm watching it even though I know I will cry yet again.
I love this movie, whole-heartedly.

And I realize this is posted early but I felt it necessary and I didn't want to miss the opportunity to truly express my feelings.

And thank you for reading it =)

Day 1- Change is Beautiful...

Change is beautiful...
But also can be a bit ugly.
And it can be formed from something ugly.
Let's see...

-I suffered from anorexia nervosa/bulimia.What’s changed is that I’m fighting it and trying to stop the thoughts that caused it.
It’s still hard but I’m managing it.

-I used to dye my hair blonde all the damn time, different shades and kinds of it that all looked like shit.
Now I cycle from black to dark brown. And the best part is…It looks good.

-I was pale.
I tanned this summer, very reluctantly.

-I used to be really lazy, some years back. I did absolutely nothing, for shiz.
Now I walk a lot.
I write as much as I breathe.
Quite active.

-I used to just be one of the guys.
Now they see me as a tough chicky. Much as they should.

-I used to be a door mat.
Now this door mat has spikes. ;
=)

I’m just a lot different.
You can’t quite record change because views change and it’s just a mess.
But please, do reflect.

This list was just hard to do because I calculate change differently than I did years ago.

Every Day is a Brand New Day...

Tomorrow marks the start of my 30 day challenge thing.
I'm warning you now...I'm quite inconsistent.
And stubborn. Very, very stubborn.
You've been warned. Haha.

The topics won't be in order, so I'm not posting them.
They'll be surprises.
Surprise!

Well, I had planned to just go to sleep so...I'll think I'll do that now.
Good night and love,
Amy "Sea"